Eighteenth.

Heyyyyyy

I'm sorry (again hahahaha) but this will be only a short update just so you guys know that i'm still alive.

fyi I just celebrated my 18th birthday last June 16, and now i'm finally legal.

Spent my birthday with only my closest college friends + my mom, sister and aunts (haha!).

I didn't have a fancy party or whatever, it was an impromptu overnight at a resort, and all was well.

I only used my instax to capture photos!! (hipster pwe) So, other than that I don't have any more documentation from my 18th. It was fun while it lasted though.

 xx,Roein

I'm back!! (or not)

Hi! Sorry for the lack of entries (again) i'll get to that sometime lol. So, i've been staying again here in Singapore for almost a month now, and I have done nothing productive since my semester ended lol. Opening of the semester starts around 2 weeks but i'm still now owning the fact that i'm halfway done with college.

So yesterday, I went to this place called Japanese Garden and i did not felt like i was in Japan thou, more like Wonderland-ish. The scenery was so pretty and the place was calm and soothing, I could stay here all day and sort out my priorities haha.

Meanwhile, my birthday's coming next month and I honestly don't know what to do, in the sense that I don't want to throw a massive debut party cos it seems impractical to me, it falls on monday so I don't know, I haven't planned on anything yet.

On the bright side, I'm going home in a week and i'm excited to see my friends once again lol talk about clingy.

Look at that, it instantly gave me ~princessy~ feels if you know what I mean.

Anyway, I'm currently out of my mind lately that means I haven't been productive nor inspired. I wish i could put myself together soon. Haha, until next entry! (Whenever that is)


xx,Roein

The Happy List II

Printed out fake polaroids for my journal

The Happy List Volume 02

1. Polaroid pictures! (Fake or not)
2. Jollibee's tuna pie.
3. Walking home with friends.
4. Spontaneous visits to Mcdonalds.
5. Drinking alcohol at a children's party. #YOLOOOOO
6. Crying your heart out after a very bad day, sleep, and waking up refreshed.
7. Bath bombs.
8. Listening to Up Dharma Down
9. Neon nail polish.
10. Finally having someone to tell my problems without judgement.

(Happy list grabbed from Wild-Spirit)

xx,Roein

The best in Philippines Contemporary Art

I had an impromptu visit to this year's art fair with my best friend last week. If you remember, I also visited last year's gallery.

ps here's a video to go along with it. aka one part of my video production midterm project.

#ArtFairPhilippines2014 from Roein Bertoldo on Vimeo.

(All images are mine.)

xx,Roein

The Happy List

#8// Left: Hairspiration Right: Me lol.

The Happy List Volume 01

1. Returning home and sleeping on your own bed after a month long vacation.
2. Catching up with friends before school starts.
3. Shopping for cute socks at the dollar store.
4. Harry potter marathons with my siblings.
5. Getting higher grades than what you have expected.
6. Sweater weather.
7. Hugging my mom.
8. Achieved my dream hair.
9. Arizona Iced Tea.
10. Being a legit directioner since July 23, 2010.

(Happy list grabbed from Wild-Spirit)

xx,Roein

My 2013 in a nutshell

Hi guys! Happy Holidays!!! :D

I was in singapore last summer for a month, and here I am in singapore staying for a month again. This was suppose to be posted as a vlog, but when i started editing it, I WAS WAY TOO AWKWARD INFRONT OF THE CAMERA so nope, not gonna happen. Maybe next time. And that explains my selfie up there pls ignore, actually don't because I look pretty there. Hah! I said it. lol.
Anyway...

Obviously 2013 has been a rough time for me. (well not too obvious if you don't know me personally since i don't get to blog as often)
I've had ups, i've had downs and that cliche  roller coaster stuff. But, I must say i've grown a lot within these past few months, both physically and emotionally, but i'm not so sure with the mental part.

I really can't believe 2014 is just around the corner though, It felt like this year just passed by, and boom you're just another year older.

This was the start of my second year in college, and i'm kinda starting to panic because hopefully I will graduate in two years time, and i really don't know what to do after that.

I am thankful though, that I have great friends i share my "panicking" with. Or is it just me or is it bec i really don't have much of a highschool life that's why i love my college friends way too much for friends that i've only met a year ago....

Anyway, 2013.

I had a crush on this guy last summer and i still like him right now oh god. I hope he doesn't read this because he knows i like him. Fail.

I've proven that friends really do come and go. aka the friend who i've always mentioned here in my blog months ago and now i'm in no contact in anyway anymore. (I would just like to point that out because yolo.)

I'm glad my semester is over, it's way 573248632548623x more tiring + hectic than all of my first year of college combined, no joke.

And.......... i'm recovering from self harm for a month now, if you must know. And i'm proud of that. That happened after some heart to heart talk with my parents, all is well.

hmmm what else,
oh yeah, my hair.
Summer 2013, i've had red dip dyed hair then it faded arund after 2-3 months?
I bleached my ends 5 times I think(?) before i got my new dip dye color which is *drumrolls* purple.

Anyway, that's my 2013 in a nutshell. I might missed out on some things because I'm such a goldfish, I tend to forget everything.

And yeah, that was my year, pretty boring if you ask me. I hope 2014 will be much more productive + fun than this year. I know it will all be on me, but meh. I try to go out of my comfort zone
once in a while.

xx,Roein

Greenlight Music Festival 2013

Hello everyone! Last friday (11/15/13) was one of the most #yolo days of my life. Despite being the fifth wheel of the night to two of my dear friends and their significant other, I managed to survive the awkwardness.

I wasn't really planning to go when two of our friends backed out, but since I really really really wanted to go (and probably because i'm the one who insisted on going + i was going for the music anyway) I figured, why not since i've got nothing to lose.

Whole story + photo dump under the cut.

Dear you,

Dear you,

I'm sorry that everytime you make an effort to smile at me, wave at me, notice me, I just turn around and act like I dont care. I'm sorry that I walk away, everytime you're coming near me. I'm sorry if I seem distant in person but all I really want is to get to know you and be your friend. Heck, I'm even sorry for the first time I tweeted you, I knew by then you were trouble inside my head. I'm sorry I stuttered the first time you said hello, I should've replied back but you caught me completely off guard. I'm sorry for being rude the first time you talked to me, but hey you were rude that time too. I'm sorry for letting my feelings get in the way.

There's things that I can't control, and one of them is falling for you. But hey, I'm thankful that we started talking civilly, with the help of our favorite band, even though that's all we ever talk about. Thank you for not avoiding me, unlike those people I hear in stories. And lastly, I'm genuinely thankful for giving me a shot at this "friendship" we're slowly starting to build, even after you knew that I kinda sorta like you.

xx,Roein

When the sun goes down

Woo! I just turned 17 last 16th. Isn't that great?
Well no. Haha. Cliche as it sounds, I still don't want to grow up. One year left, and i'm elligible to go to jail (not that i'm a murderer) but who knows what crime i might commit with the lack of intelligent species around, I'm a fucking adult by then.

Except me magically turning old, nothing special really happened then. It was a sunday + father's day, so none of my friends dropped by.

I'd like to give thanks to facebook though, for making people remember it was my day. Even with all the greets and messages, I didn't even feel a tad special. Plus I should have not expected anything. I know, expecting in any way is wrong and would lead to devastation but I just can't help it, idk is it just me that treats their friends "special" and goes ahead making diy presents for them just to show how much I care? Is it wrong to expect even something so insignificant like a card or what not.

Just had a skins marathon in my room, the whole day. Then my mom bought cake that evening, and that was it.

Although, special shoutout to my roommates!! For surprising me bigtime with their twitter icons. HAHAHA, sadly i didn't get a screenshot, but it really did make me smile. (laugh)
And also to my best friends!! Chrystelle, Clauie and Ryun ♥ ♥ ♥ One heart for each of u bitches for making me tear up. Hahaha. And lastly to my crush because I seriously wasn't expecting a greet, and he sent it through message for fucks sake. That gave me much much much 38642374623746238429x more kilig than a wallpost.

Anyway,

I've been listening to new eargasm lately. Namely: Marina and the diamonds, Arctic monkeys, Imagine dragon, The temper trap and Birdy. (I meant new to my ears, mind you) And this post was named after one of Arctic monkeys songs.



ps i just downloaded instagram and vine. Follow me: beyatrizm :-)
    and i know i owe u guys my singapore video diary, i'll get to it soon hehe ;;)

xx,Roein

Metathesiophobia: fear of change

Unlike other kids, I grew up studying from one school to another, moving from place to place, in short I was always adjusting from one place to another. It was always scary, I always wonder what if I end up alone, what if no one wants to be my friend? I'm socially awkward and I really don't know how to make a proper conversation, let alone I'm always paranoid if I bore someone whenever I'm around them.
Right until now, I envy people who literally grew up with their friends, someone who attended preschool to high school with their best friends. It was something that life didn't give me to experience.

Although, one perk of moving from one place to another is that I get to meet tons of people. meaning I get to have different set of friends. I get to have them, but it meant I had to leave them some time again. I'm tired of having to live that way. It's not that I don't want to meet new people, but for once in my life, I just want to finish studying college in one place. I'm perfectly comfortable and happy where I am now, I don't want to leave here until I graduate, that's all I ask for.

Maybe that's one reason why I haven't got the time of my life when I was in highschool unlike everyone else. I transferred schools from first year to fourth year, making me adjust every year despite the feeling of being accepted. It's different when you grew up with your friends/classmates you know? Ofc I wouldn't know. Duh.

Anyway, i'm just having one of those 1am thoughts that my mind wouldn't shut up with.

xx,Roein

Old habits die hard.

Change of environment, same old habits.

Yep, that's me.
I'm still taking in how real it is, that I'm actually in Singapore right now, and while I'm doing that, I have done nothing productive from the last three days that had already passed. (Possibly aside my updates, but meh.)

The state of dreaming. (Feb-Apr '13)

After a "semi" short hiatus, here I am guys, with a summary of what happened within the last few months.

So, February-April was my midterms and finals month, so obviously I was (lazy) preoccupied with my exams as well as my requirements.

Nothing much happened last February though, except for my visit at the art fair, having my ear pierced and float making at our school's basement. Aside from that there's not much stuff to blog about. (Hah, a lazy excuse just bec I don't remember half of the stuff that happened then lol). Ooh and also, I have been listening to Marina and the diamonds lately! (Hence my title) I love her to bits right now. <3333

Stress week

• Quick update (again)
• I promise to blog properly after our midterms (and by that i may mean after finals week lol)
• 
• I have a painting due later, since it's 5 am where i'm typing this at the moment.
• I have an ignite speech to deliver later for public speaking 1 as well. (┳Д┳) (YES WE HAVE TWO PUBLIC SPEAKING CLASSES IN ONE TERM)
• I have yet to again pass research topic proposals, since my prof just rejected my proposals for the 73649234823748i237428th time. 
• I just finished making my flyer for technical writing, now all I need is to print it and will probably cost much, since It's full on colored.
• Not to mention, my mom and sister will again be leaving for Singapore.
• Leaving me and my brother young, wild and free. Chos.

xx,Roein

The best in Philippine contemporary art.

Yesterday, me and my friends visited The Best Of The Philippines Contemporary Art Fair at The Link, Ayala Center, Makati City.

At first though, I was hesitant to go with them, and was actually planning to go on Sunday and find someone who isn't busy because it turned out they only asked Isya and so I was down the whole morning. Hesistantly, I managed to go though. Anyway, enough with the drama and here's a glimpse of the exhibit:

More photos at my facebook.
So anyway, there's an entrance fee of Php100, but It's definitely worth it.

xx,Roein

The liebster blog award ♥

What is the Liebster Blog Award?

The Liebster Blog Award is given to up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers. “Liebster” is German for “dearest”.

The rules for this is to give 11 random facts about yourself, answer the 11 questions asked of you by the blogger who gave you this award, nominate 11 bloggers and create 11 question for them to answer.

So in this case, Thank you Jo for the award! >:D<

11 Facts about me:

1. My favorite food are carbonara, spanish bread and sinigang.
2. I am very very very socially awkward.
3. I have two siblings.
4. And I'm the eldest. -_-
5. I'm poor so, I don't get all those fashion stuff I want. (weh) lol
6. Me and Isya are planning to start a business this year.
7. I'm inlove with Zayn Malik, and I'd like to think he knows my existence. :(
8. But I love Tom Felton more. =))
9. I'm a potterhead, slytherin sorted.
10. My attitude depends on who I'm with.
11. I'm one bad ass lady. :-)

Questions from Jo:

1. What are you looking forward to most in 2013? I guess any kind of adventure will do.
2. What is your favorite childhood memory? Being innocent.
3. What advice would you give to your younger self? Voice out your feelings.
4. What was your reason for starting a blog? I need something to relieve my stress on, and writing on my journal isn't helping. Plus I want to document my future artworks here. :>
5. Who is your favorite blogger/s? Reese Lansangan and Camie Juan!!
6. What are your favourite books? The Little Prince / Harry Potter Series
7. If you could travel anywhere in the world where would it be? New York City
8. How many pairs of shoes do you own? Seven
9. How many bags do you own? Five
10. Do you prefer bags or shoes in general? Definitely shoes
11. If you could go on a date with anyone who would it be? Zayn Malik ohohoho

Questions for those I've tagged:

1. How was your day?
2. Are you sure?
3. Top five must see places:
4. Why?
5. How many pairs of pants you've got?
6. Do you drink milk before going to sleep?
7. Describe yourself in one word.
8. When did you started blogging?
9. Why did you started blogging?
10. Do you have a pet?
11. What do you want to say to your readers?

Blogs I'm tagging: (If you've already been tagged, no need to be obliged to answer this)

1. Sartorially Challenged by Nina
2. Berryliciously Sweet by Eriele
3. Glam Goddess by Mika
4. Soon to be Author by Bea
5. Curious Katrina by Katrina
6. Jar of feathers by Izzy
7. Je suis Marlou by Marlou
8. Talk Pretty by Stacey
9. Creative Wonder Child by Chelsi
10. Spaceship to Infinity by Arielle
11. Amour, la fille by Leah

And that's all folks! 'Til next time. ヽ(๏∀๏ )ﾉ

xx,Roein

The art of thrifting.

(weh ansave)

Hey guys! So I have been addicted to thrifting since Isya introduced me to this craze.
So whenever I have spare money, I usually ask Isya to take me to thrift stores, so right now, I think 1/4 of my clothes are thrifted. And recently, I bought three pieces again. ＼（＠￣∇￣＠）／

I got this lovely sweater for only Php160 ($4)

This shirt for Php85 ($2)

huhu I had a hard time choosing between these three. </3

and lastly, I bought this for only Php35 ($1)

I'll remove the pearls on this one though, I think it's a bit out of place.

So, I therefore conclude, you guys should go and try to visit local ukay-ukays and get one of a kind pieces like mine. (You really need to be patient though,since you need to look through all the racks to find the prized pieces.)

The skies are sharing sympathy, It's been raining since this morning. :(

Hello guys, apparently I'm blogging from my iPod right now. I think i won't be updating for a couple of days.

I skipped school for two days because I was not feeling well, plus i'm too lazy to wake up at 3 in the morning and travel at 5 am when usually I only start to fall asleep around midnight. But hours after I just recovered from my flu, we received very sad news.

My grandmother passed away yesterday evening, and i am still very shocked to say the least. I really can't accept it yet, even though i've seen her corpse with my own eyes. It feels like she's only sleeping you know. Of course it'll scare everyone if she decides to wake up though (lol).

Honestly, i'm speechless. We're not exactly that close unlike my other cousin's relationship to her, but she's still my grandma right? I still clearly remember the day, two summers ago when I was very pissed because of her but looking back now, ugh. I really don't know what to say or even feel. I'm melancholic, frustrated, sad, confused, idk. I'm just ranting out my thought at the moment. Rest in peace lola Pining. You will be forever in our hearts, we love you! I guess you're happy now though? You're with lolo and tito Jet now.

xx, Roein

Let me kiss you :*

Of course Zayn, I'd let you kiss me. Mwahahahahaha.
It's been months I tell you, since I last fangirled like this. With all my schoolwork gaining my time (weh), thank god Kiss You premiered before my classes start! No words can express how giddy I am right now, I'm literally crying and spazzing all over the place since it's like 5 am at the moment I really can't scream my heart out can I?

Whatcha waiting for bitchachosss?!! Hurry up and fangirl with me right now!!!111!!

xx,Roein

Fam bam!

Last thursday, after enrolling myself. My parents brought my sister to this arcade/carnival? And being the good siblings me and my brother are, we went along hence making it family time.

( Beanie: Forever 21, Shirt: Cotton On, Shorts: Bazaar, Shoes: Converse)

xx, Roein

Happy Slytherin year!

First blog post of the month and i'm feeling a tad guilty for not posting earlier than this.
So first of all, HAPPY SLYTHERIN YEAR EVERYONE!
Ha~! After the successful dragon or should I say "Draco" year, I'm obviously happy I can relate this year to Harry Potter again. (ok nevermind my potterfilled head)

So, um just like what everyone says, new year = new life, another time for change u g h
so being the lazy oaf I am, I still haven't written my 2013 goals. So much for that. So anyway I might as well blog about my christmas and new year.

Ok so nothing immensely interesting around christmas nor new year's eve (the usual noche buena and media noche with fam bam.) despite the fact that for once I wasn't bothered with bad vibes or something else related to negativity so i'm betting 2013 will be great unlike my previous years (fingers crossed.) The only downside though my parents didn't bought luces (EVEN FIREWORKS) :( had to depend my firework craving from my neighbors lighting their firecrackers and what not from my street.

Anyway, I just got enrolled (woohoo third sem!!) still without my parents not knowing about my grades until know huhu, well actually my grades are OK though, my only problem is Progcon.

see?
Well I need to struggle hard this third sem If I want to graduate even as a cumlaude! (taas ng pangarap dre). So classes start on the 9th, and i'm looking forward to it. E V E N though I super hate someone right now for making me think that he was going to transfer schools, he deserves a punch on the face doesn't he? The git.

Anyway, I have been reading tons of Dramione fanfiction this christmas break, and I never got to do anything that I had planned to do. Gr8.

'Til next blog post!

xx, Roein